... Something found beyond the pain of doing it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream.
How come everything is always my fault? I'm always the one that's left in a mess and yet it's my fault? Sam kicked off yesterday because i invited lucy to my party so Laura wasn't on her own.. I understand that's its gotta be awkward between them but sometimes you just have to ignore her. Apparently i didn't understand.. but i have been through what he's going through and i do understand.
He told me today that he didn't want to talk or text me and didn't want me to speak to him... So again, it's my fault? and I'm the one left in this situation?
I actually thought he was a decent lad and i really do like him but maybe showing his true colours now is better than showing them later on? right?
I'm so irritable at home purely on the fact that i can't do anything about it. Apparently i 'blew my chance' but i only reacted because he kicked off? He obviously doesn't see it that way :(
Just something else that's gone wrong... kind of getting used to that feeling.
There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.
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